No I am not crazy, but like the other night, thoughts pop up as I am working with the clay about the parallels to life...
So tonight I was smoothing over an early crack in the clay. I know from pinching out many of these forms, that I will see that crack again as I continue to work the clay and it expands, grows thinner and larger. And every so often, the crack will show up again. I smooth it over. And depending how deep the crack is, I have to really smooth it a lot. Or just a little for a small crack. Working around and around the clay. Crack. Smooth. Pinch pinch pinch, ...repeat until finished.
And sometimes I leave those lines and sometimes I smooth them out. But in the very early stages I always smooth it out because it will tear open the entire form if I do not (but it would be fun to let it be and see what happens....another time)
Ok, so the parallel.
So when I smoothed out that crack and knew later I would see it again, I thought about my life and the cracks in it. On the brink of turning 40, and having more life experience behind me...I am realizing that cracks I thought I had taken care of years ago...reappear from time to time for smoothing over.
When that first happened in my life, I remember feeling so upset about it. I felt I had taken care of that "issue" So to have to work on it again...I felt like I had failed in some way. As I did not fully take care it the first time around.
I don't feel that way anymore, I realize that my stuff comes up again, and I get to smooth it over--not in a bad way, but like a healing way.
I just love realizing and experiencing it physically with clay. And how gentle it can be, that smoothing over. Loving really. And that it happens!!! ... In clay too. clay is a great teacher, let me tell you!!
14 hours ago